everything in
it's right place

ok i dunno why i've gone mad recently but i've been talking a lot of nonsense. hahahaha. sorry (should i be saying sorry?).

went to sonicfest yesterday, which was a christian music festival at fort canning park featuring local and international bands like planetshakers, sonic flood and surreal. the place was beautiful (i've not been there before, save for those primary school excursions). however i didn't really like most of the music. from a general point of view, i think christian music should be able to convey a message, a evangelical message. otherwise it would just be deemed as rock, or pop, or dance or whatever genre you want to call it. it would just be spewing out your own thoughts, feelings. and most of the local bands - i just don't understand what kind of music they are trying to create. i wouldn't really call it music. but not to digress from the topic...

back to sonicfest. i don't think anybody besides a christian would've gone by himself, unless he was dragged along by another christian. he'd probably die of shock. there were people raising their hands, closing their eyes, shouting at the top of their voices. people on their knees, people jumping like mad bunnies on rabies (do bunnies get rabies?) at one point i was jumping up and down like a mad bunny too, but it was probably more because hian liang wanted me to jump up and down like a mad bunny with him than anything else.

the atmosphere reminded me of a club. security checks, door passes, crowded toilets. perhaps more like esplanade's baybeats. so i thought it was a bit weird.

religion is believing in the unseen, the intangible stuff. and being merely human (is that right? merely human?), it's difficult to be able to do such things. don't worry, i'm always behind your back although you'd never see me, ever. you can feel me, see the things i do, hear me, but you'd never see me. that's just an analogy for what i think.

atheist probably laugh at me all day long. why do people believe in some of the things they do? is it just because so and so was brought up all his life on this same beliefs and reasonings, that he is just too accustomed to it to believe in anything else? sometimes it is so. sometimes christianity feels like it has so much meaning, sometimes it feels like it has no meaning at all.

i wonder about the tons of people who go to concerts and festivals just like this, who actually just like to listen to good music, but justify themselves by raising their hands and jumping like rabid bunnies. i think i'm just confused.

although in the end, i think it's much better to be confused than ignorant.

i'll stop here, will continue later.