everything in
it's right place

today was a funny day. you know, funny as in weird.

the main event was booking in to camp, unfortunately to zero my rifle (sar21 which also happened to be already zeroed). basically to those of you who don't know, zero-ing aligning the sights of the rifle to the actual trajectory or whatever, so that you can actually hit what you're pointing at. ok ya whatever. turned out that it wasn't so bad after all. spent most of it sleeping! haha while waiting for my turn. but now i feel bad because i didn't really help with anything at all. meh.

woke up from a bad dream today with my heart racing pretty quickly. it wasn't really a bad dream. but i woke up as if i just had a nightmare. weird, right? what i dreamt about was actually a collage of different dreams, but i only remembered the last one which was about going to church!

the scenario: i had to play in church for service and service usually starts at 10am, with the morning rehearsal at 8.30am. but my family and i were watching tv and you know how dreams go all zigzag and all over the place? yah then i noticed the time and it was 10.15am! ok this probably wouldn't seem to be that much but i like to be punctual for all my activities if possible (but seldom happens haha). and 10.15am would mean being 2hrs late!

so perhaps this post doesn't make much sense, but it sort of got me thinking about church, christianity, religion, and everything in between. these things just seem so illogical at times, that it's really just beyond comprehension. and recently i've been thinking a lot about it, asking questions, trying to understand. somehow i just can't stand people who have no idea about the what they believe in, and worst of all refuse to admit it. i despise people who follow others blindly, but i'm such a hypocrite in the way that i sometimes commit these very same mistakes.

maybe i'd call this phase: 'finding my purpose', or 'the meaning of life'.