everything in
it's right place

so today was pretty drastic, because a lot of significant things happened. most people wouldn't even think twice about most of it, but they mean quite a lot to me.

first, my internet's a bitch. it disconnects every 6 minutes on average. if i'm lucky, maybe 50 minutes. and you know i've logged on to the WoW server about 100 times today? because i kept disconnecting every 6 freaking minutes?! that got me really pissed. i almost went to the extent of going out just to play, but that goes beyond my moral values.

second up, my friend's busy for v day, so now we can't go out. bummer right? but i'm going to australia that night. and who goes on a valentines day date during lunch anyway. probably should find someone better to go out with than me :/ but to digress, i've kinda given up on it. cuz i can be so unreasonably sensitive, and the closest friends just leave the deepest wounds. maybe add insecure to one of those charateristics, and i'm a bomb waiting to explode. there's only 10 days left anyway. debs likes to get pissed when i ever mention anything remotely close to it.

this morning i was clearing through my cupboards, and read lots of my old and not so old cards. and. i wanted to write something about cards people write and how a lot of times they say one thing 'oh you mean so much to me' and 'we'll be friends forever!' but when you look at it from your point of view, it looks all wobbly and upside down. like a jelly thingy. that just got melted by cyclops super eyes or whatever. but i couldn't really find the right words for it so this is how i'll have to describe it. ok.

finally, my mom's gonna be staying in australia. this is just the worst news of the day. because she's going to take a part time degree, which'll span a WHOLE YEAR. so i'll be staying with my mom for one whole year in australia. no more people in the house, no more parties, no more booze, no more drugs or ciggies or girls or computer games or any LIFE AT ALL just MOM. at least she has the credit card. sigh.

talking to jared online now. my social life is so pathetic that sometimes he just seems like the best person to talk to. maybe more like the only person to talk to. now he says that i'm interesting because he empathises with what i write in my blog. and i'm thinking ?!?!?! and i didn't even give him my blog address in the first place. luckily i know his blog address... got my sherlock holmes private detective skills going on...

who cares about all this shit anyway, right? my guitar is calling.