everything in
it's right place

i just woke up; forgot to take out my contacts. half of me is in a daze, the other half well, in a daze too ya.

something weird happened. i tried calling jeff, but the phone said 'not in use'. was thinking how on earth it could be; but luckily i called the right jerm tan not the swimmer. so called sarah asking for his number but she went blah blah blah how can you not have his number can't believe you blah blah and she gave me this number which i thought was the exact same number i just called. so heck i called it again and ta da it worked! gosh what's wrong with me

then he says i should have just added his msn instead of calling him. what friends nowadays... haha. and in fact i already had his email address, but save that i thought tt he never used msn since who knows when and always stuck to icq from the apple/mac days.

then i almost asked dominic on msn he was going to school tomorrow. sheesh.

and becky told me she was sleeping over with some guy and i was like HUH?! actually it was her counsin, just that i misread it.

sigh better freshen up before i do qt, who knows what i might read otherwise man.





semi excited about tomorrow. going to acjc to watch ac idol; sarah said that one of the bands are really pro - they are playing sweet child o mine. which is probably in the top 10 best songs of all time ever ever ever list. and they are playing sunday morning, which i thought was the best maroon 5 song ever until everone started singing it. so it's probably gonna be great. and after that! i'm going to rogue to see electrico play live. and clubbing too. but it's right after acidol so it'll be a rush and i won't have time at all to buy ciggies. which is good. plus diana will be there so she'll probably slap me upside down. which is good. AND jac will be there :) :) :) man oh man oh man she looks EXACTLY like that girl whom i forgot the name from my trinity f maths class. it's the look that you look at and just want to say nothing because she looks so good. nothing that pretty, nothing that spectecular or what. but you just look at her and want to look at her more because she's nice to look at. haha i must be crazy. and i need to turn 'meet friends' mode on cuz everyone is going to australia soon; i'll just fish myself a new clique.

haven't smoked for a real long time. don't even feel like it actually. which is good. but cough is killing me.

was thinking. the people you don't seem to like do, and the people you're just dying for never like you back. it must be life playing some cruel, twisted game. and they say god gives you trouble to see how you stand. my legs must be buckling. and this that. and you think about these things when you least want to. please, just give me a helping hand.

ok. becky called and said some nonsense for 10 seconds then said bye. weird.

i'm saving up for the biggest expenditure of late, which is the POD XT LIVE, $668 at citymusic. so i got approx $250 for cny. another 400 from the bank. sigh i'll be so broke. i think this is like one of the most crap ways to blow my cny cash. and i'm getting it this saturday so that's only 2 days more!

call becky now sigh. gosh i'm coughing so hard my lungs are probably going to fall out. sigh.




well i've been afraid of changing
because i've built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
even children get older

and i'm getting older too.