everything in
it's right place

i've been reading lots of books recently due to my ops duties. sort of a more recent hobby of mine, reading. i think it's partly because it makes up for my lack of adequete english skills. because some of the books i read rip out that stubborn situation out of your mind, and put it right in front of you. it materialises your thoughts and feelings, puts your thoughts into words, something more concrete.

it's quite interesting, nice in a way, to read a book and and suddenly say 'ah ha, that sounds really familiar!' or 'hey, it's like he's describing me'. maybe i haven't really grown up enough yet, past these shallow generic and general descriptions.

this is random

sometimes i want to say things, but i'm afraid of how they'll come out. sometimes i want to say something, but i really want it to mean another. sometimes i just really don't know what i want.

well, told you that i couldn't really find the right words