everything in
it's right place

happened to be blog-surfing - yes the low-life activity that people like me do under circumstances of extreme boredom - today and chanced upon this. rather amusing. if only all girls were like this, the world would be a better place! for guys, at least.

boys are seriously quite dense creatures. they can make you sO mad and not realise it. then even dumber girls, for example me, will get damn worked up for nothing. because the boys dont actually know you are angry with them. a particular boy made me sO mad today that i had difficulty breathing.. but he obviously doesnt know about it. but thats alright. im completely fine now.

monday's plan was supposed to be as follows:

7am: wake up
8am-12pm: study
12pm: borrow dvds from serene center
rest of the day: play computer/practise guitar/watch dvds
10pm: go running


unfortunately i woke up at 11pm, and spent the next hour wondering why i woke up so late. thereafter i realised that it was a really stupid decision to walk to serene center in the blistering hot sun, so i didn't do that either. managed to spend all of 15 minutes practising some guitar techniques (at least it helped a bit) and added in a fair bit of snoozing to the timetable.

the evening run didn't happen either. must be the monday blues, yeah.

tuesday's plan: go running after breakfast, borrow the dvds before coming home, and study in the afternoon. hmm yup. the studying bit isn't really that critical, so i'm pushing it to the afternoon when my sis-in-law (brother's wife) will be coming over. she's bringing the kid, so i'll have to lock myself in my room. again, lest playing and spending the next few hours doing baby talk and smelling baby drool. haha.

just played a bit of world of warcraft, and i can never understand how some people like those hardcore taiwanese gamers can get sooooooo hooked on to it. i was all stretched and tired out after just 2hrs! and the newspapers say that they apparently spend up to 48hours playing in a row?! my eyes feel like they're on a red bull overdose :/

meh.

there's no combination of words that i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing but i could try for your heart and
our dreams they are made of real things like
a shoebox of photographs and sepia-toned lovin'
love is the answer at least for most of the question of my heart like
why are we here and where do we go and why is it so hard
it's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

brunei was a pretty interesting experience. the weather there is quite nice: moderately dry air and gentle breezes, so you don't quite sweat as much as singapore. it's cool (sometimes cold, even) at night, so sleeping is a generally pleasent experience. there's very few mozzies out in the field and though it's dark at night it's not the least bit scary (unlike certain parts of tekong). the terrain is really hilly, steep gradients with lacking map information and lots of hidden features. so navigation is a pain in the ass.

the training was as follows: 3 days of navigation, followed by a 3 day stay in a 'jungle village' of sorts and the grand finale of it all, which is a company level exercise comprising of 2 missions over 4 days. between each of these events is either an overnight sleep back in the bunk or some misc training to brush up on the technicalities.

we don't get much fresh water outfield; most of it is from rivers and streams. initially i was skeptical about drinking water from these sources (i mean, omg this is river water right?!), but it's rather pleasent after all. the water is cold and refreshing, tasting pretty much like mineral water (just what it is, isn't it? haha). nothing beats sitting by a stream after a long trek to freshen up and have a nice cool drink.

rediscovered my old love of playing with fire. setting aflame almost ANYTHING puts a smile on my face. must be some arsonistic tendencies. especially on a really cold night up mount biang (also the highest hill/mountain we climbed up during our 18 days). the temperature drops to around 20plus celcius, coupled together with the wind creates some reallllllly cold situations. my gpmg gunner and i formed a small fire of sorts and sat by the glowing embers, bodies all curled up (not together lah!) trying to keep ourselves warm. maybe that's what it's like to sleep by a fireplace? yummy warm feeling.

the stupid forest there gets so dark at night that i couldn't even manage to see my hand right in front of my face, let alone with the night vision goggles (no idea why i brought those along). anyway.

i guess in a certain sense the training really built me up, in terms of maturity. maturity to handle my platoon men, to handle situations, to handle myself. people always tend to take many things for granted, and only realise it when it's taken away from them. it's so easy to critic other people, but never yourself. and in the end there's really no one else to say sorry to but yourself. many people in my camp are jerks, but it doesn't mean i'm allowed to be one too, right? but at least i got a second chance this time (unlike many other times). it takes a lot of balls to fully admit that you're wrong. given my really short attention span, i hope i won't forget this.

really missed my parents, the sonnies and a few others. HI I"M BACK!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :)

1) compared to singapore, brunei is a really lonely (and different) place

2) don't attempt to play dota in brunei

3) how to be nice



maybe i'll elaborate later